I have to say, June wasn’t too bad. There was enough craziness to keep it interesting, but also some down-time. There was time for some knitting, and hallelujah, there are finally some completed projects. I did some reprioritizing and some trips to the frog pond. I have some new goals in place and should have more finished projects soon.

Finished objects:

Re-set Socks knit in a couple Regia yarns. These are basic vanilla socks that I knit for Feebs. I knit them with a 7 inch foot, so hopefully they will still fit her by winter. I have no idea how I screwed up the grafting of the after-thought heel so bad. It has a purl line instead of a smooth knit. Feebs doesn’t wear her handknit socks in shoes, so it shouldn’t bother her too much.

The Alpine Bloom hat by Caitlin Hunter. This has it’s own post, but let me suffice it to say, she was exactly what I needed. This hat was a pallet cleanser and a quick squish knit. I have put it in the gift box, since they aren’t really my colors. This should come in handy for any school or work gifts.

New cast-on:

Re-knit socks for Feebs (new addition)

Works in progress:

Shatar Vest

Knitting My Memories blanket

Kaylen Mesh Scarf

Doctor Who Scarf (Tom Baker)

Goals for next month:

Finish Doctor Who Scarf (Tom Baker)

Work on Kaylen Mesh scarf

Get more daily physical activity

Practice more mindfullness

I have finished projects! Hooray! Weaving in the last end of the Alpine Bloom was so incredibly cathartic. It may just be a single hat that generally takes me a day to complete, but it was the first happy thing that I had completed in so long. I was able to use up some yarn that I wanted out of my stash, and it was such a pleasant knit. I think I will pull out another small skein and use of the rest of the Urth yarn, once Doctor Who is completed. When I got the contrast yarn that I needed for the Reset Socks, I decided to knit them for Feebs instead of me. Since her feet want to grow an inch per day, I knit them with a 7-inch foot. They are too big for her right now, but that will give her some time with them. I am so happy that I wrote the post about the frog pond. That forced me to really evaluate my projects and determine their fate. I did rip out the Highlights Tunic (that was so painful), the Gingerbraid, the vanilla socks, and the Re-make Socks for Feebs. I think this is the second project that I have ripped out using the Berroco Summer Sesame (Highlights Tunic), and probably the third or forth rip out of the Cascade Eco+ (Gingerbraid). I am tempted to just use up the Eco+ on bulky charity hats. I can’t seem to find a good pairing for it in garment form. Plus it just pills so easily… I will put the Berroco Sesame and the man colored Regia away for a future use. I intend to cast on the Re-knit Socks for Feebs shortly, adding contrast toe, heels, and cuff. That should stretch out the recycled sock yarn. Sitting here writing this, I am pondering if I have more of it wound up for my Knitting My Memories blanket. I may have to investigate that once I use up what I have. Feebs told me that she wants high socks, so I may need to either look for more yarn or figure out a striping situation with the contrast color. The striping would be really cute, actually. I really want to finish Doctor Who. I love the Husband so very much, but I hate this scarf with a passionate passion, not found in nature. Everything about it makes my eye twitch. Therefore, I will be making a completion chart and figuring out a way to get it done by the end of July. After that is complete, I need to buckle down and complete the Kaylen Mesh Scarf. I have time till Sister #3’s birthday, but I want to get it done and off of my mind. Between the two projects, I may need to cast on a cheeky little project to keep my inner-knitting gods happy.

The first week of June was pretty busy. I brought the Mother home from the hospital that week. The Auntie came and spent the week helping her. The following week I had lunch with the work ladies, and then Father’s Day was that weekend. I’ve been going to the Mother’s daily to change her bandaging and check her surgical drain, so it was looking like we were going to have to postpone the celebrations. But it all turned out good. On Saturday, I was needing some time with my people, so we got in the car and headed over the hill to Berkeley. We stopped at Barnes & Noble to pick up a copy of “3001 Would You Rather” book, and then we headed to a local brewery, Fieldworks. We sat and read off Would You Rathers for a solid two hours. We had snacks and the Husband and I had drinks (they had a tart cherry cider slushie that was a complete delight). The three of us had a fabulous time. No one was on their phone, no one was tuned out. We sat and enjoyed each other’s company and the way that our minds worked. It cracks me up how alike Feebs and the Husband are, sometimes. They both quantify the hell out of me. Oh, and we did a little side quest to Urban Ore and holy crap! They had a set of Knitter’s Pride interchangeable wooden needles for $65. They were in perfect condition and I was thrilled to find them. The following day was Father’s Day. The Husband decided to go to Pacifica for Gorilla BBQ. He wanted to go for a bike ride too, so we loaded up the truck and headed out. We stopped and got his food, then headed to Sam’s for lobster rolls for Feebs and me. I need to remember that their on-line ordering/ pick up situation is amazing. We took our food to the Pacifica Pier, and the Husband got to say hi to his dad (since that is where we spread his ashes). After we ate, we decided to ride along the bike path next to ocean. It was slightly chaotic, and Feebs got very nervous riding around people (honestly, so did I), but we still had a great time. We drove back toward home and stopped in the city to see if the Husband could find a beer called “Dill and Ted”, which is a dill pickle brewed beer. He had read that Fieldworks had brewed it and this place stocked it. Unfortunately, they had already sold out. He did end up finding it later in the month and he made dill pickle micheladas, which were incredible. After that we headed home and relaxed for the rest of the day. The following week was my infusion appointments. They were rather uneventful, which was very nice. That week was also Juneteenth, so we had a lot of time together. I only worked Wednesday and Friday. The weekend was very chill. The next Monday, I got to see Sister #2 for a quick visit/ dinner since she came down to take the Mother to one of her local appointments. I am still the lucky one that get’s to take her to all of her city appointments. That Friday was a Ladies Night. I got to see my Golden Girls (virtually). My soul needed that. Things are moving along for Abs, but they are neither easy nor painless. She makes me awed at her strength and positivity, even when her world is falling down around her. There were a couple of drain appointments in there for the Mother, but other than that, the month ended uneventfully.

I am so grateful for my little family, both my unit and my chosen family. They are what keep me going. I am so grateful that the Mother is healing so well and that she is doing way better than I thought she would. Work is still challenging, but I am so happy to have a job and be able to afford my life. I am happy beyond belief that the first stage of the house project is done (so are the kitties!). It took a while to gain the momentum to do it, but now it’s done and it should never have to be done again, at least not by us. I am happy that June was a kind month. Next month will mark one year of my life being turned upside down. I am looking forward to July 16. I have decided that is the day that everything changes and I can let go of all of the chaos of the last year. It will be here before I know it.

Loves,

M

Hello darling. At some point I fell in love with the idea of having WIPs that I could work
on as I got the urge. I am always drawn to podcasts that are about WIP round ups and
whether the maker will finish or frog them. I get a huge adrenaline rush when I pull out
a project that has been languishing for a while and finally knock it out. So, here is my
version of “To frog, or not to frog?”.

At present, I have 9 WIPs on my Ravelry projects page.

In order from oldest to newest:

1. Knitting my Memories blanket- this is a self-created chevron pattern to use up my
scrap sock yarn. I began using a single strand of sock yarn. I work on this when
the mood strikes me, which is very infrequent. I have flirted with starting over
and double stranding with a neutral fingering weight yarn to add uniformity and
so that it knits up quicker. I intend to continue working on this blanket and will
make the decision about restarting with a new yarn the next time I pull it out.
KEEP!

2. Shatar top- this is a colorwork pattern knit in light fingering weight yarn. I love the
colors that I selected, and I think I will wear the garment (in cooler months) when
it’s finished. The last time I pulled it out I was having issues with hand pain and
the color work made it worse. I honestly think that once I buckle down and work
on it, that it will be a relatively quick knit. The color work pattern is memorable
and can be visually tracked easily. I may try working out a completion chart when I am ready to work on this again. KEEP!

3. Highlights Tunic dress- I started this dress as the pattern was written, but let’s be
real: I HATE bobbles. They look like skin tags, and they are just not my thing. I
ripped it out and altered the pattern intending to sew pearl beads where the
bobbles should have been. I think I messed up on the lace pattern and had to rip
it out once or twice. I made another mistake and instead of working on the top
of the dress, as the pattern called for, I flipped it and made it the skirt. When I
started to knit the top portion, I made so many mistakes and alterations. I got very frustrated and ended up putting it in a time out through the winter. I pulled it
out recently and realized that I did not notate any of the adjustments that I
made to the back portion of the dress and I have no idea what I need to edit on
the front. As I look at the fabric being made, I realize that I really don’t like how it looks, and I am not certain that the beads will make it any
better. I considered ripping out the top portion and keeping it as a skirt, but I
really just don’t like the pattern adjustments. I took it too far out of look of the
original pattern and now I am not happy with it. I still really love the original pattern, and I may consider trying it again with a different yarn and ideas on bobble substitutes. FROG!

4. Kaylen Mesh Scarf- this is a gift knit for Sister #3. This was supposed to be her
50th birthday gift. Her birthday was last October. Holy Jesus, I need to finish this
and give it to her! I have absolutely no excuse for this, other than I simply don’t
want to work on it. My plan now is to give it to her for her 51st birthday, which is
just pitiful. This will really need a completion chart. KEEP AND FINISH!

5. Gingerbraid- this was an idea to finally use up some of the Eco+ wool from my
first failed attempt at the Dude Sweater. I still have it in black and natural, and I
still have no idea what to knit with it. I really loved the pattern and thought it
would be a great pairing. I started it when my brain was still pretty mush from my
old meds. I was stuck right away and only completed the ribbed band and the
first row of the pattern before putting it in time out. I still think the pattern is great,
but a.) I don’t know how often I will wear a sleeveless sweater and b.) that yarn
pills like crazy after wearing the garment twice. Because it is cabled, it will make shaving
it difficult and the fabric will look sloppy very quickly. I need a spinning friend who
could spin the yarn tighter for me (if that is even a thing) so that it pills less. I
may consider reknitting this at some point and possibly gifting it but now is not
the time. FROG!

6. Re-make Socks for Feebs- these are the socks that I started for Feebs, knit out
of the socks that were too big for me. I thought these socks would be an easy
and quick upcycle project and that she would have some new socks before the
weather warmed up. Then her feet decided that it just wasn’t going to happen, and
they had nerve to grow an inch and a half in about two months. The socks were
already snug by the time that I got to the cuff. Since I had knit the heels in, there
was no going back. I was considering cutting off the toe and knitting a long
contrast toe to lengthen them. Unfortunately, by the time it would warm up
enough for her to want wool socks, even with a longer toe, they will be too small.
I know that she still really loves the yarn, so I think I will rip them out, and start
over with a contrast toe, knit the foot and then stop until the fall and remeasure
her feet to see where the (contrast) heel should go. That will allow me to use
more of the main sock yarn for length and then I can add in an additional inch or
two in hopes of the socks lasting through next cold season. FROG AND
RESTART!

7. Doctor Who Scarf (Tom Baker)- this is a gift knit for the Husband. It is unofficially
his Father’s Day gift. I hate everything about this knit. 1.) it is a 1.5 ft x 7 ft long
garter stitch scarf, 2.) it is knit in the most horrible colors, 3.) the striping pattern
has absolutely no symmetry and creates a ton of loose ends to weave in, 4.) it
is knit on size 9 needles, and they are killing my hands. What’s not to love?
Unfortunately, I really love the Husband, and he really wants this scarf. To the point that he has even started to watch that season of Doctor Who in anticipation of getting his new scarf. This will really need a completion chart, and I will have to stick with it so that he can have this damn scarf sooner rather than later. KEEP AND FINISH!

8. Reset Socks- because I was really starting to build up my WIPs, but was finishing
absolutely nothing, I was feeling the need for a quick win and cast on a pair of
vanilla socks in a fun rainbow striped yarn. I cast on 60 stitch socks and
intended them to be mine. They seemed very tight to me, and since Feebs won’t
be getting her re-make socks any time soon, I decided to make them for her
instead. I didn’t knit in heels because of the great growing feet debacle and
realized that I have no thicker weight sock yarn for the contrast heel and cuff. I
had to put these aside and order another ball of solid colored Regia to use. I
have just started to work on them again. I think I will cut the heel in at 7”, just to
be safe. That should allow her to grow into them, possibly even into the following
winter. KEEP!

9. Vanilla socks- I cast this sock on because I needed something to work on while
the Mother was in surgery, and I didn’t have the contrast yarn that I needed to
work on the Reset Socks. I grabbed a pair of needles, but they were 2.75mm,
instead of the 2.25mm that I usually use on my socks. I haphazardly grabbed a
ball of Regia yarn and knitted one sock all the way up to the lower ankle,
including the heel. These were going to be for me, but the fabric is just too loose,
and I don’t think I will want to wear them once they are done. In addition, I think I
bought this yarn with the Husband or Father in mind. FROG!

Now that I have done the thing and documented what I am going to do with each WIP, now I have to do the thing and either finish or frog them. I honestly think I need to finish the Kaylen Mesh Scarf first, just to get that done and ready to gift. I really want to finish my Reset Socks so that I can just be done with them. I also want to be done with the Doctor Who Scarf so that I never have to work on it again. Seriously, girl, I am ready to take these on and get them done. I also need to bust out the ball-winder and start to rip-it, rip-it, rip-it. I have my plan, now I need to execute!

Loves,

M

May is such a beautiful month. Life is in bloom, the weather is starting to warm up, and
my soul starts to thaw from the winter cold. It is always a busy month with Mother’s Day
and the end of school drawing near. It is also the time of year when my desire to work
on cold weather knits starts to decline. I start to think about plant based fibers and
flowy, breezy garments. This month held no finished objects, but there was quite a lot
of knitting, including three new cast ons.

New Cast Ons:

Doctor Who Scarf (Tom Baker)

Reset Socks

Vanilla Socks

Works in Progress:

Shatar vest

Re-Make socks for Feebs

Highlights Tunic Dress

Gingerbraid

Kaylen Mesh Scarf

Goals for next month:

Finish Doctor Who Scarf by Father’s Day

Reassess WIPs- come up with a plan

Declutter (clothes, porch, toy room)

Continue next phases of the house project

Knitting did happen this month. Quite a bit, in fact. The problem came with the finishing
part. There has been no movement Gingerbraid. There has been no movement on the
Kaylen Mesh Scarf. There has been no movement on the Re-make socks for Feebs.
Good lord, that is a lot of stalled projects. I did pull out the Highlights Tunic dress, with
the intention of finishing it so that I can wear it in the nice warm weather. I have
absolutely no idea where I left off. I am not terribly in love with it, and I have some hard
decisions to make about where she goes from here. Do I have it in me to undo the poor
decisions made by past Mrs. Collins? I cast on the Doctor Who Scarf for the Husband.
I have it in my head that it is his Father’s Day gift, to keep me on track to finish in a
decent amount of time. I told him that he probably won’t have it on that day, but it should be around that time. This scarf is offending my delicate sensibilities terribly. The
asymmetry of it is making me twitch. So are all the of the ends I must weave in. I was
getting frustrated at the lack of finished objects that I had and wanted a pallet cleanser,
so I cast on some rainbow stripped socks to help me reset. Unfortunately, I had no
thicker weight sock yarn to use for contrast heels and cuffs, so those stalled once I got
the body of the sock completed. I had to put them aside until the yarn that I ordered
arrived. I will pick them back up once the yarn gets here. Then I cast on another sock to
knit while the Mother was in surgery. I grabbed a ball of man-sock yarn (that I bought
specifically for the Husband or the Father), for some reason. I also grabbed the wrong
size needles. I still cast on a sock in my size. The fabric is feeling very loose, so I am
not certain how I feel about this sock. I knitted the entire foot and heel but still am not
convinced that it is really for me. I will put it in time out and think about if I want to keep
going, or if I want to rip it out. I really feel the need for a finished knit. I thought rainbow
socks would be just the thing, but that hasn’t worked out yet. I may need to start
perusing for something fun to work on as a true reset.

May was good. It was busy, but what month isn’t? It started with a nephew’s 18th
birthday (Sister #3’s son). Holy crap, how are six of my rental children adults now?
That just doesn’t seem real to me. We went to his birthday party and that was really
nice. It was good to see him being celebrated, since he is generally so quiet. The
following weekend was Mother’s Day weekend. Friday night, I had dinner with the
ladies. We went to a restaurant that we had all been to before and had enjoyed ourselves.
This time, it kind of missed the mark. We still had a great time together, but not all were
satisfied with the meal. On Saturday, there was a school music festival that Feebs was
performing in. She did great. All the kids did great. After the festival Feebs and I took
the Mother to lunch. It was a series of unfortunate events, from the “special menu” to
the incorrect order to the second lunch that was necessary once we got home. We did
manage a nice, if slightly strained, picture of the three of us. Sunday was a bit of an
emotional day. I couldn’t think of anything to do and ended up just sending us home to
do regular Sunday stuff. I realize it is mostly on me, but I tend to feel very unimportant
and like an afterthought to everyone on Mother’s Day. I feel like crap on every single
Mother’s Day and tend to get a lot of anxiety each week that leads up to it. At this late
date, 11 years in, I would rather just cancel it going forward. The following week was
fairly busy. We had Open House for Feebs on Tuesday, the last one of elementary
school. Then I had my eye specialty appointment on Friday. We didn’t plan our day
well and had to mostly skip our yummy Redwood City restaurant. All was well at the doctor. My vision issues have cleared up nicely, I think. Once we got home,
Feebs and I ended up heading to the Father’s house for the weekend. We had a nice
weekend with him. He surprised Feebs with a golf cart ride to McDonald’s and a really
cool light show at the Galleria. We played cards and Feebs had a blast every time she
won a game. The Father cracked up every time Feebs did her “I’ve got my eyes on
you” motion. We left fairly early on Sunday so that we could go to FHs bestie’s 11 th birthday party. He had it at his house with lots of school friends. Feebs had a really
good time and participated with everyone. That week was another very busy one. I had
round two of my infusion appointments. They weren’t bad at all. Nothing compared to
the 5-day treatment schedule. I felt a little achy and headachy on Thursday night/
Friday morning, but I am hopeful that I just needed to hydrate more. Feebs and I
attended her 6 th grade orientation/ walk-thru at the new school. It was informative and
helped her to get a feel for how the school is laid out. She is excited by all of the clubs
at the school. On Thursday I had to report for jury duty… The one time I can’t serve is
the one time they send me to Richmond. I have wanted Richmond each time I get a
summons, and I always get stuck going to Pittsburg. I got to see the old health center
and it was so sad. The poor little dilapidated building that holds so many memories.
Apparently, this was the 3rd pull of jurors and girl, it was a 23-day long trial! I understand
how important it is to do your civic duty and serve on a jury. Any other time I wouldn’t
have tried to get out of it (and I swear, they ALWAYS pick me). This time, however, I
had to put in for hardship. The jury selection was scheduled for 10:25 on the following
Tuesday. The mother’s surgery was scheduled for 10:30 on the same day. There was
no way I could be in two places at once. I was terrified that they wouldn’t release me,
and that I couldn’t be there for her surgery. Thankfully, I did get dismissed. We had
ladies’ night on Saturday. It was good to check in with my gorgeous golden girls.
Things are moving forward for the northerly one. We will all be going to help clear the
decks once all the dust has settled for her. The littlest O didn’t make the cheerleading
team, which was sad. The only good thing is that they will be able to have a summer
and get to come to Feebs’s party. The following Tuesday was the Mother’s surgery. It
took 5 hours but was a fantastic success. She came out of anesthesia very well and did
amazingly during her whole hospital stay. She did better this time than she did 20 years
ago, when her body was younger and more adapted at surgery. It bothered me, not
being able to go see her every day, but she did so good and all went so well. The
Father came on Thursday night so that he could attend Feebs’s 5 th grade promotion
ceremony. It was so sweet. The kindergarten class came out and sang to them and
wished them congratulations. I almost burst into tears, remembering her as a little 5-
year-old. She did so good and was so proud of herself. Weather’s made her a really
cute money lei, and she was thrilled to receive it. I can’t believe my girl will be going
into Junior High… Crazy times. Oh, and Stage 1 of the house project was finally
finished!!! The windows, siding, and trim are complete. We have a new front and side
door. The French doors were walled in and now there are now functioning windows on
our porch. And Feebs FINALLY has a window in her bathroom. Hooray! We have an
appointment for Stage 2 (which was unexpected), and it will repair and replace all of the
interior trim that was torn away or missing with the new window structure. Stage 3- front
yard landscaping will be scheduled once the garage doors are in and after we have paid
for Stage 2. Stage 4- decks probably won’t be completed this year, sadly. I live in wonder if we will ever complete that stage. That is one thing that I have wanted to do since we bought the house, but something else always gets prioritized over it.

May is done, and June will be pretty packed. I can’t even describe how relieved I am
that the Mother’s surgery went well. I am so glad that it is done and behind her and now
she can start healing. I am glad that my May treatment went well, and June is
scheduled. I am happy that Feebs has finished the first chapter of her school life, and
we all have survived so far. I am thankful for my chosen sisters and the constant
support that we give each other. I am thankful that Summer is on the way and warmer,
longer nights are approaching. I am thankful for all that I have and everything that is
good in my life.

And because I haven’t updated anything since the beginning of the year, here is the
current Knitting Bingo card.

Loves,

M

Yeah, I know. I just finished and published March. I am a little bit ahead this month, happily. I have a finished object and I am so excited about it! I am not saying that my inner-KNITTER is 100% back, but I feel like she is emerging more and more. I am beginning to enjoy knitting again. Even when it doesn’t turn out the way I had planned.

Finished objects:

Calliope, by Espace Tricot. This is the second time that I knit this sweater. Mistakes were made, but they were user error. This is a great pattern and easy to follow. She will have her own post shortly.

New Cast ons:

Heart of Glass- gift knit

Works in progress:

Shatar Vest

Highland Tunic Dress

Gingerbraid

Remake socks for Feebs

Kaylen Mesh Shawl

Goals for next month:

Finish Heart of Glass by Mother’s Day

Survive the chaos that will be May

Self care- make time for mental health breaks

Wow, wow, wow! I finished something! That is a really great feeling. I have missed that feeling. And right after I bound off Calliope, I cast on Heart of Glass and have made really great progress on it. My goal is to finish it by Mother’s Day so that I can cast on the Dr. Who scarf for the Husband. I would like to finish it by Father’s Day, but I am not putting pressure on myself. It is approximately 7 feet of garter stitch with roughly one million ends to weave in. If I can come close to finishing by his day, I will consider that a success. I am generally a selfish knitter, but for some reason I have been wanting to knit for others instead of myself. The Heart of Glass is for the Mother. It’s not her Mother’s Day present (she got that back in March when her Kindle died). I just thought she would love the yarn and she had already told me that she loved the pattern when I was showing her my Ravelry queue. Between you and me, darling, I am very disappointed at how little yarn it is using. I thought I would be able to blow through all three of the skeins, and I think I will barely crack into the second one. Oh well. I can always knit something else with the left overs. I was musing about the possibility of sewing and touching base with myself if it was something I wanted to start thinking about. I confirmed that I don’t want to sew right now, and that is okay. I am just getting my knitting legs back under me, so I will be happy with that for now and leave the rest for later.

April started with a bang. Day one: I had my official diagnosis and treatment plan change. My labs have come back conclusive for MOGAD instead of MS. This means the treatment I have been on for 2-years is being discontinued and I have started the IVIG treatment instead. The rest of the week wasn’t nearly as eventful. The Mother and I finally managed to go have our dinner out together. One of my all time favorite seafood restaurants is closing, after like 50-years in business, so we went there for dinner. Hopefully I will be able to go one more time before they are closed, but if not, at least I got to have it with her. The following week was Feebs’s Spring Break. She spent the whole week at the Mother’s house, and they had a blast together. I went over and had dinner with them a couple of times, but all in all, I didn’t see Feebs much that week. The following weekend we had our long awaited and many times postponed dinner with the FH bestie and his family. It was a very nice evening. We always enjoy hanging out with them. We also celebrated the best Lamb’s 11th birthday. That means that Feebs is right behind her (quietly sobbing). The following weekend we had birthday drinks with Kennard and Weather’s. It was a small, intimate group, but it was a really nice evening out. I really enjoy all three of them and it is always nice to get some people away from work. That weekend was also Easter, which meant the Husband’s family gathering. I love that group of people. I always get so overwhelmed by large groups of people, but I do love seeing them all. And there were babies, which thrilled me to no end. The following week was the 5-day IVIG treatment. I won’t get into the gory details, but suffice it to say that it was ROUGH. I handled the first three days okay but those last two flattened me. I was very hopeful that I would be able to work around the infusion schedule, but at least for that first week, it wasn’t possible. They gave me full doses of Benadryl each day, which SUCKED. I am very hopeful that as I progress and my body gets used to the meds, I can phase out the Benadryl or at least lower the dose. I ended up so sick after that I missed an additional two days of work. Good times. I am going to believe that it will get better with time. The rest of the week/ month was spent recuperating and getting my system back on-line. My stomach and sleep were greatly affected and it took a while to get everything settled again. Oh, and they also started the work on our house. By the last day of the month, my house was completely naked and had very large holes in all the attics. I am still freaking out about the cost of everything, but it is now out of my control and I just have to go with the flow. (I will still be praying that we don’t run out of money before they are done with the structural work.)

So, that was the month. It definitely packed a memorable punch. I had a lot of changes come up and I feel that we all rolled with them as best as we could. I cannot be more grateful for the kickass support system that I have behind me. My little tri-pod of love completely supports me when I am close to collapsing. I will forever be indebted to these three people in my life. They own my whole entire heart. I know that we all have each other’s backs and that we can count on each other. I also feel confident that I can handle this new treatment plan. It maybe hard for a bit, but I think I will adjust over time. Look at me being all positive Pollyanna!

That’s it then. May is going to be pure chaos, from start to finish. But, I have hope that it will be a smooth and positive month. There is some scary stuff coming up, but I know that I can handle it and all will be well. That will be my mantra till June.

Loves,

M

That was rude. I swear February isn’t worth the cost of admission with how fast it goes, but at the same time, it is always packed full. I had set goals of Finish It February. I made a very clear list of the three projects that I was going to complete in the month. And yet, none were completed in February. I didn’t lose my knojo, I simply hit road blocks. Since nothing got finished in February, do we try for Make it in March?

New cast-ons:

Calliope Sweater

Coffee Sweaters

Works in progress:

Kaleyn Mesh Shawl

Reknit socks for Feebs

Gingerbraid Cardigan

Highlights Tunic Dress

Shatar Vest

Goals for next month:

Cast on some Dream Knitting projects

Fix/ finish Feebs’s socks

Home remodel project

Yes, I did knit, thank you. No, I didn’t finish. I must say I am rather bumbed out by that. I had grand plans, really I did. I knit a whole bunch on Feebs’s socks. I got to mid-calf and had her try them on to assess how much yarn was going to be left over. Now, I factored in an additional 1.5 inches for the foot when I cast on because her feet grow like weeds. Why, then did the socks just barely fit her feet? This child grew an extra 1.5 inches in a month and now the socks fit very snug. That means I need to hack off both toes and give her an additional 2 inches in a contrast color. Even doing that, she will likely outgrow them by Summer. That was very discouraging. Needless to say, they are in a timeout until I am ready to deal with them. The the shawl isn’t to blame for its state of unfinish. Honestly, the knitting isn’t even bad. I know me and I know that the main reason I don’t want to finish knitting it is that then I have to string fringe and tie on a bazillion beads. It is fiddley and sounds like a lot of not fun. But I need to get it done. This is past the point of ridiculous, and I can no longer blame my broken brain on the fact that it’s not finished and gifted. I need to buckle down and just get on with it. Oh, I did get one of my dream knits (before I wrote the post about it) on the needles. I cast on a Calliope sweater. I have one in teal already, and I think it is one of my most worn sweaters that I have ever knit. I love the drape and shape of it. So far, I have knit the collar. I need to move on with the short row shaping and then it is just a basic raglan sweater. I picked the yarn up a local hospice thrift shop, it’s a gorgeous Lana Grossa merino in dark orange. I will love wearing this. I also got onto a kick of knitting Coffee Sweaters. I love those things and they take about an hour to knit. I am thinking it will be a great thing to do to use up some of the scrap basket. Another thing I accomplished was clearing out my Ravelry projects page. I eliminated the Vinca hat and a couple of other projects that were going nowhere.

February, my fleeting love, you kill me each year. Aside from the fact that there are a metric ton of birthdays in this month, mine included, the month is just full of people and always busy. The first week was unfortunately spent still recovering from the weird that happened in January and with my uncle’s funeral. It is incredibly odd that there has now been a death within my parent’s generation. He was the Father’s brother in law. We got together with that side of the family, which was bittersweet. We haven’t seen them in a long time, and it’s unfortunate that weddings and funerals are what bring people together. I have vowed to see my cousins though, and not lose the connection. The next weekend was spent trying to help the Mother get her house ready to list, along with more medical crazy (this time it was hers not mine.) The house prep took up the following weekend, too. My birthday happened in their, but it was no big deal. Each year is taking a larger toll, and 44 is no different. The week after that was a bit more chill. The Father came so we could celebrate our birthdays together. We took him to a new Filipino restaurant by our house. Holy crap, it was an experience. They had a live band and put on quite a show. We even got up and danced together. That weekend the Husband took me to a Fluffy show in San Jose. The weekend started with him picking me up from work with no hair. He had gone and cut all of his long hair off. I spent a solid minute just giggling. I absolutely LOVE him with his short hair! It is weird how much younger he looks. And he once again looks like that guy I met. I loved the surprise. We went to the show and had a great time. Fluffy always does a great show and we were really close to the stage. We stayed a hotel for the night, which was awesome. It was so nice to not have to rush home. We went to the San Jose Flea Market the next morning. We hadn’t been there since before Covid, so it was a lot of fun to go back and see what had changed. On the way home, we stopped at Cicero’s and made my whole day better. The next day, Feebs had a birthday party to go to. It was at the place that she wants to have her party too. It was a good trial run of what to expect. The last week was a bit crazy. I was having health issues which required steroid treatment. Steroids do NOT like my brain. They always make me very manic, and boy howdy, did they. I had to have a 3 day course, so life was very exciting for the last week. We ended it up at the O’s house, which was probably a big mistake. I was not in a good head space for chaos. We did have a good time though, all things considered.

The month was very busy and emotional. I got some answers and I got some setbacks. I aged a year and got a younger looking husband. There was a lot of good with the bad over the shortest month of the year. I continue to be eternally grateful for my tribe. I don’t know what I would do without the people in my life. I am not trying to sound dramatic, but I honestly don’t know how or if I would have survived this last 8 months without them. March will be it’s own beast with its own issues and chaos, but February finally felt like a turning point. I felt less hopeless and more like I could get on top of my medical issues. They aren’t going away, but I am less scare of them. I am also beginning to be less scared of my own body. I am ready to stat on this track and start to develop my new normal.

Loves,

M